blue skies

listening to: noah and the whales blue skies

i took the bus home from my grandmothers house a couple of days ago. today i have been to the city, i went shopping and bought a oversized t-shirt with lionsprint and a t-shirt with BLACK written on it. but i am acctually in a pretty good mood. here at home i can control what i am eating more, so i eat less meat and more vegetables (more about that later), and i am im my own room and sleep in my own bed. its a good feeling, its so nice to be at home again. i love traveling, i just am in a period where home is such a comfy place, that i also flee from. here's the deal: i want do be the one deciding whether i go home or somewhere else. i hate not being able to decide. but when i have the uppertunity to go home, as most of the time, i choose not to. just as anything else, we always strive for the things that are almost impossible.

in town i met my freind, emma. we are good frinds, and it was very nice to see her again. i feel that since the christmas break started, there is now some kind of wall between me and everybody else. i got in some sort of bad mood, and even talking to my mom didnt go so easily. but seing her today and my friend ragnhild yesterday was what i needed. really.

but as i walked around in town today with emma, we saw the typical stupid girls, the mainstream fucks: listening to taylor swift, wearing clothes looking like bags - monotonous edition, having at least 10 layers of foundation on their faces and tar on their lashes, eyebrows marked with a black eyeliner making them look like the stupiest pig you have one time saw on that childhood cartoon or something. they are everywhere! ist scary. emma said: there are stupid everywhere.
i said: agreed. i think every body should reed the book beatles by author lars saabye christensen. if that book was some sort of general knowledge, the world would be a better place.
emma saying: your fucking right.

 the book beatles by lars saabye christensen(norwegian author, but the book is translated in many languages, im sure) is very good. its perfectly to read when your are like me, in a time like between wartime. when youre unexperienced, just starting to get the taste of life, no tknowing where to start of in which direction to go. when the people that should guide you arent understanding a word of what you are saying, the lights that should light up the past are blinding you, when the way isnt build yet. is is about four boys living in norways capital city, oslo, in the 60's. they are experiencing the nam-war from the outside, in norway, and they love beatles music. the are sort of rebels, and like me youngsters trying to find out who they are. as the beatles band did, they split up and the two following book is the triology (in norwegian: bly and bisettelsen) lead and funeral ends the story with them being very apart from each other. it is sad in a way, of course, but reading the book, which is such an outstanding recollection should really be read by everyone. it gives you a new view of live.